so it’s friday morning. i realize i should be on my way to work, but i mean, it IS friday (be thankful i’m not breaking out into that obnoxious song right about now) and i technically got up earlier today so i’m justified in pounding out a post before my day starts!
it’s been pretty clear to me recently that the Lord is trying to teach me something. he does that quite a bit, sometimes the lessons are a little more subtle and sometimes they hit me like a sack of bricks (goll does anyone even use that analogy anymore!?). but yes. recently it’s been pretty clear through random scripture, random encouragement, and just the conflictions in my heart that the Lord is teaching me about something that he’s been trying to teach me about for years: patience.
it’s kind of funny how things will just pop up here and there about waiting on the Lord. just in general, words from friends have been “wait. give it some time.” and while that is all well and good, being in the middle of some sort of craptastic life event doesn’t make swallowing those words any easier. but then add in about a dozen random scripture references from messages, podcasts, and randomly opening up my Bible and it becomes pretty clear.
then this morning as i was getting ready, i glanced down at my hand. i tend to write a word on my hand so i see it… this can be any word like ‘bold’ or my more popular drawing of a red heart (think Because I Said So). but yesterday at work i had temporarily tattooed myself with the word ‘wait’. and when i saw that, i was instantly brought back to freshman year of college when God first made it clear that i needed to learn what patience was and what it meant to wait on Him.
does anyone else feel this way?
sometimes my life feels like a movie. not in the awesome, everything works out, everything is perfect sort of way… but more like someone keeps pressing the back button on my life and i keep reliving the same thing over and over and over again. not the rewind button where you can watch it go backwards at 2x speed, 4x speed, or whoops-i-accidentally-rewound-to-the-beginning-in-2-seconds speed. but the back button that brings you back to the beginning of whatever chapter you happen to be in. because sometimes it feels like i’m in the same situation, just different place, different people. hence, why i truly believe that God is still trying to get me to to have faith in his timing.
so i thought i’d share a song that i wrote freshman year, about waiting. it’s kind of funny because i was singing it to myself the rest of the time that i got ready and was like, oh dang. this is exactly how i’m feeling now! even the circumstances that led me to write that song are the same! YIKES. it’s also the very first song i wrote… so enjoy -
its days like today that i feel so alone
and days like today bring me down
i can’t see the plan that You have for me
so i run on ahead to see
but You say:
“wait for me. and i’ll give you peace.
wait for me, cuz i know
its hard to see what I’ve got in store
so at times like these, just wait for me.”
i run ahead and i cast you aside
and i can’t see my life through your eyes
as my plans start to fail and my all’s not enough
i hold fast to your promises
cuz You say:
“wait for me, and i’ll give you peace.
wait for me, cuz i know
it’s hard to see what i’ve got in store
so at times like these, just wait for me.”
sometimes i run ahead of You
and burdens get the best of me
but then i think of what You said
and hear you gently calling me
to wait.
“have faith in me, and i’ll give you peace
have faith in me, cuz i know
in time you’ll see what i’ve got in store
so at times like these, have faith…”
i’ll wait for you, and i’ll have faith
i’ll wait for you, cuz i know
it’s hard to see what You’ve got in store
so at times like these, i’ll wait…
so at times like these, i’ll put my faith…
so at times like these, i’ll wait for You.
really. how is it that i constantly forget how many blessings come out of waiting on the Lord’s timing? i dunno. i’m sure i’ll always be learning this lesson. good thing the Lord is merciful and abounding in grace.
